Robbed of innocence,
Wandered off the path,
Never to return,
No reasons left to laugh.
I'm just a whiny 20 yr old who is stuck in the past, where the days were sweet yet numbered.
I crave attention and comfort.
This is my online diary that I'll try to write in every day.
I have super low self esteem, anorexia, and BPD [ERD].
I JUST WANT TO LIVE IN A HOUSE IN THE FOREST WHERE EVERYTHING IS PRETTY AND GREEN AND THERE IS A LOVELY BLUE LAKE NEARBY AND MY BACKYARD WOULD BE NOTHING BUT BEAUTIFUL GREENERY AND LOVELY ANIMALS AND I COULD GO INTO THE CITY EVERY NOW AND THEN AND BRING BACK LOVELY THINGS TO PUT IN MY HOME AND I WOULD LIVE SUCH A PEACEFUL HAPPY LIFE WHY CAN I NOT DO THIS.
just had a super long, hopeless, depressing, defeating talk with the bf about how miserable I am in our relationship. he needed to know. i even wrote it out for him so he can’t say he forgot anything. I need to write more letters to him like that…just absolutely everything so nothing can ever go wrong. He would have field notes. Personal field notes. No more hurting…ever…no more
